Days, months, weeks, and sometimes even years - they all go by us. If we're lucky, we tame them long enough to feel like we were not just standing there as they went by; sometimes we actually feel present in them. But not enough. Too many amazing and wonderful things go by without so much as a nod or moment of appreciation. Because life happens. Because we get busy. Because we just keep going. This blog is a way to stop all of that spinning and pause some of those quiet, simple little moments that make us smile. Being grateful is not something that we just are - being grateful is something we should actively do. This is two friends living many, many miles apart, sharing their tiny little moments of gratitude in pictures with each other and with the world.

Monday, March 3, 2014

Grateful # 26 - nothing


I actively decided that I wasn’t grateful for anything today.   I would find no light peaking out from under some papers, no source of inspiration dancing across my field of vision, no hidden meanings hiding out.   There would be none of that today. 

It was a lousy day.  I almost didn’t want anything to make me feel grateful because I  wouldn’t even know what to do with it.  Negative Nancy stole my clothes and my car and drove to work.  I hated everyone.  I hated everything.  I was mad.  I was sad.  I was just not feeling it at all. 

And then it came to me a few minutes ago.  Im grateful for not being grateful for anything today.  By really allowing myself NOT to see anything positive or anything happy, I was able to really get to the core of what was bothering me in the first place.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for pulling yourself out of those bad moods and turning it around, but those Band-Aid approaches don’t fix things; they patch it for a minute and heal awkwardly.  They end up being sore for a while.   Bathing in whatever it is that gets us upset, makes us sad, gets us frustrated, points out our inadequacies, unearths our demons – is cleansing.  Because once it’s out of our systems, once we make ourselves deal with ourselves, we can start seeing positive things again authentically. 
 It’s been a hell of a day.  And I felt every single minute of it.  And now I can put that to bed.  and me, too.
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